F is for fear

Psalm 34:1-4
1 I will bless the LORD at all times;
His praise shall continually be in my mouth.
2 My soul shall make its boast in the LORD;
The humble shall hear of it and be glad.
3 Oh, magnify the LORD with me,
And let us exalt His name together.
4 I sought the LORD, and He heard me,
And delivered me from all my fears.

I find myself fearing so much these days... Germs, sickness, Lyric to feel pain, her surgery, & the loss of our joy through this season. Lyric is so happy & to look at her you would never know that her heart is broken. I'm so thankful for her smiles all day long, when I feel overwhelmed or scared she just smiles and everything is right in the world! Randi called me this morning and said that she had found a verse and wanted to share it with (above Psalm 34:1-4)
It came at the perfect time because I was feeling down & scared about the thought of what my sweet baby girl will endure. Not just the pain but the scar that will remain and how she will feel about it. That may sound silly in the grand scheme of this but it is real and will be with her forever. I pray she sees God's grace! I was getting down about the fact that nothing in our life is normal... There is no NORMAL! but as my sister read me this verse I realized yet again that HE LOVES ME!!! Right where I am... Tired, scared, ungrateful, moody, fearful, etc. etc. etc. My favorite part is verse 4 He delivered me from all my fears! Wow for this mom and the fear that I feel every second, this is huge! I'm
not saying i have this figured out because even as I write this I find myself choking back tears at the very thought of Lyric in pain but He wants to free me from my fears. A dear friend said that at the moment when we have to kiss Lyric goodbye at the double doors, we will have to trust God more than ever before and find comfort in the fact that He is where we can not be. Fear... That is what I'm facing today but my God is so big so strong and so mighty there's nothing my God can not do!!